I Won't Let Go.....

"At these times we struggle and feel crushed inside, 

But the only way to look is up....

The only way to look is up....

Thank you for his life"

I hate having to let go of things in my life, I will always try to hold onto the little things that help me through my life. Some examples are the memories I have of my old dog Max he died young but I love the memories I have of him and I never ever want to let go. But there are some memories that I wish would just go away...

But this is not the case sometimes.... When people pass on from this life we always try our best to cling to the memories we have with them. These are the times when we wish we had more. More time to talk to them, more time to spend with them.

Its my deepest regret to write this but this week Rachel's uncle passed away. Now this is a bad time for any family, but I don't like to dwell on this passing as a bad thing. The 2 times I got a chance to meet Dale were amazing times. The passion and the love that he showed over the time we had together was amazing, the love he had for his wife, his family and Jesus was inspirational and I want to be able to say that I lived my life to the extent in which a stranger like me can come up to you and just tell that you have lived your life to the maximum and for the right reasons.

He pulled me aside at his house in Oregon, whilst Rachel was chatting and helping her auntie in the kitchen.... He leaned into me and whispered "How do you want to be remembered?" I answered "as a man who loved his wife, family and Lord." He smiled, sat back and said "remember that you will always fall short but Love will always overcome." Those words rang through to my heart and even though I have (as I said before) only met him twice they mean a lot. Coming from a man who showed by the way he talked, lived and loved all the way through his life and it was such an evident example all through the time we had together it meant a lot.

Over the past couple of days on Dale's facebook page it has been riddled with stories and experiences that Dale has been involved with in their lives. I am amazed to read all of these things and inspired to live more for life rather than death, this sounds quite strange but I mean that I want to live my life thoroughly for Jesus and not just for me.

Life is nothing without purpose.... Jesus brings that purpose, identity and life to me.

Please keep Rachel and her family in your thoughts and prayers.