Trust....

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him and He will make your paths straight"

Proverbs 3 verses 5-6

"Trust is a painful thing... Trust is a painful way to live.... Trust is putting your heart on the line again and again for it just to be broken......"

Trust is a huge issue for me... I mean going through my life I can pinpoint some major points where I have put my trust in someone and had it thrown to the floor and stamped on. These are mainly in family life, through family divorce but also by myself. I have hurt myself because I didn't trust in myself.

In this verse it talks about giving everything over to God for you to trust in Him eternally and not lean on anything in your mind but give it all to Him. I find this very hard in every situation in my life even in church on a Sunday morning but each time I have been taught and held in safe hands whilst I learned these lessons but still I screw up.

My version to this verse is "Trust in the Lord sometimes when you want Him to work otherwise Jamie's in control because your the one who knows best, Give Him certain bits of your life but be careful not to give everything because you will end up hurt and again remember you know best". This is how I sometimes live my life but I'm slowly learning that this is not right, that this is not the way to live because its just not healthy.

How can I not trust God when He has done so much in my life, and blessed me with this life with Him??

Easily and very shamefully. Every time there seems to be a routine that I got through when I get opposition in any way or form, that I will give God like 5 minutes to act then I will take over (as much as I can) and "deal with the situation". Funnily enough this NEVER works. I always end up broken and hurting and wondering how it all happened.

Trust is a huge issue for the world. From CRB checks to I.D. cards everywhere there is no chance for people to just be able to accept the truth when we put up all these hoops that people have to jump through.

God didn't create the world so we could separate ourselves from each other... He created the world so we could be in relationship with each other. How are we ever going to be in unity when we have so much doubt in the ability to trust?

"Trust in the fact that we have life for a reason and that through Love, Trust and Hope we can have life to the fullest through Jesus"