Love and Patience....

When I was younger I had an amazing idea of becoming a train driver.... Yep I didn't want to be superman... or a fireman instead I wanted to be a Train driver. I thought those guys were amazing, being able to drive a train must be amazing!!

But still I had no concept on the training, the health and safety checks, the applications and the amount of effort that the fully qualified train drivers had to put in each and every single day for theirs and their customers safety and travel. But still I wanted to be a train driver. 

As you can imagine I have since then dropped that "dream" but instead picked up a new dream.... a new ambition. I want to be a Dad. Not a professional Dad just a normal Dad. Someone who will be around when they are needed... someone who will be there to listen to their children and wife about their problems and how their days have been. No I don't want to go to a training course for being a Dad and I definitely don't want to come out of a school with a certificate saying that I'm a fully qualified Dad. No I want to just be a Dad as simple as that sounds I want to be there for my family to turn to in happiness and in sadness. Whether this will happen or not is a completely different question but still its something that I really want to be. 

I was wondering how you can be a good dad, so I asked a couple of family men about what its like being a Dad and how they do it and they said 2 things. 1- patience 2- love. Both in abundance not just for his family but for him.... Because he said he will somehow fail each of his children and his wife in whatever way that is. 

That sounded crazy to me but I can totally understand what he means with that.

Somehow I will fail my children and my wife. 

For me to hear this before even being married was crazy but still it made me more determined to do better already in my relationships. It kinda gave me this achy feeling in my chest about how determined I am to see me and Rachel's relationship grow and grow. 

But to know I will and have already failed Rachel broke my heart. 

This is where the patience and Love comes in. 

Patience for all those times that I screw up and Love to be the thing that ties this relationship together so tight that we can't get away from each other. 

I don't ever want to fail my family but to know that they love me and that I love them is enough to help me stand back up whenever I fall down. 

Love and Patience.