Grace.....

Grace.... Its the word on the lips of pretty much every Christian, yet I still don't understand it.

There are many meanings for grace....
1- elegance or beauty of form, manner, motion or action, attractiveness, charm etc....
2- a pleasing or attractive quality or endowment
3- favor or good will
4- a manifestation of favor, especially by a superior
5- mercy, clemency; pardon

All of these have there own meanings for the one word. But still looking at them, I can still say that I do not understand truly what Grace is.

I met up with a person who has really supported me over the past few years (I won't name him) and we were having a conversation and the topic of Grace came up, I said I don't know why its always a struggle for me but I feel like I should be able to understand it by now.

His reply was one that has helped me a lot recently, he said "its not knowing what Grace is that helps us, its knowing that God will act through whatever understanding we have of it."

This as I said has helped me a lot, through the tough times of being apart from Rachel, to standing across from her marrying her. It has helped to know that whatever God knows, He knows us as well. As much as we know Grace we will never ever know the full extent that God shows.

Its like a puzzle that is always growing, you may think that you have it all in place just to find out that you have only done one section to it.

Its crazy to think that our human actions can even begin to exercise the truth behind Grace for an example... you could receive a food parcel from someone and it could be considered Grace, but on what level is that grace? You could be given a brand new car for your family and you, what level of Grace is that? Which one has more strength in its Grace? How can we ever truly know what we are doing when we can't understand what true Grace is?

I think that Grace starts at the cross. Grace started way back when God created the world, when He knew He would have to give His only son. Grace is the sacrifice of something that is so costly, but is done with the knowledge that some might not recognize it. Grace is a sacrifice being made, understanding full well that it may not be accepted or appreciated by those it was given for.

I will be honest with you, Grace is just one concept I will never fully understand. I am confused by it daily and yet God still shows me by letting me spend my life with the woman I love and being part of His plan and family.

None of those meanings at the top of the page can truly explain what God's view on Grace is. None of them even come close to the depth that the word holds, or explain the true nature of it.

It still blows my mind, it will continue to blow my mind forever....