Patience.....

As that take that song says....

"have a little patience"....

As a lot of people have said to me before....

"have a little patience".....

And as God continues to challenge me,

He says, "just have a little patience".

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I hate getting told this....

Its literally the worst thing to do, to tell me just to wait for something is ridiculous. 

Why would I wait when I could just get it done and be finished with it....?!?

That makes total sense. 

Until it doesn't. 

And I come back to God saying "what did I do wrong? Why didn't this work out the way that I wanted it? Where were you through all of this...?"

If you couldn't tell this does happen alot! 

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I don't know when I will learn, or if I will ever learn this lesson.

But its important. 

God's timing is so much better than mine.

God's plan is so much better than mine. 

God is BETTER than me.

Now thats a hard one to admit but when I look back at my life and see how some of my 'plans' and 'great ideas' have panned out.... I realize I am pretty bad at making plans. 

If I look at how God's plan brought 2 people from different sides of the world together, through all the problems they have and have kept them together. Then I realize that His plans are so so much better than mine. 

Why would you ask a child to build you a building when you have the chief architect of the whole world waiting on the other side of the door....

It makes perfect sense to me, that God is better. 

But there is one problem with that. 

I am human. 

I am a man.

And I like to 'think' that I am in charge. 

I always have Jamie's back up plan.

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God doesn't need a back up plan. 

The war has been won. 

I long to be able to just rest in that. 

Knowing that God loves me, knowing that He died for me. 

Knowing that I am His. 

I want my plans to become His. 

I want my life to become His. 

I just need a little more patience.