How do you look at me....?

So since Ami has been born this constant thought has been running through my head.

This thought has been "how do you look at me?"

This is something I ask because whenever I get home from work or being away I am greeted by this look, this look that just forces me to smile.... to be instantly happy and forget all of my problems in the world.

And with that I think....

Well hows does God look at me?

And how do I look to Him?

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Do I look at Him with excitement that takes away all my fears?

Do I look at Him in delight for all the wonderful things that He has blessed me with? 

I wish I could say that I look at Him all the time with great delight, all of the time....

But I don't. 

Sometimes I forget to look at Him at all. 

Sometimes I think I am not worthy to look at Him and I am to messed up to be fixed. 

But then I look at Ami and think that if he can find so much comfort and excitement from me just walking through door I should be looking to God and doing back flips..... (I can't physically do back flips but you get the idea).

Sometimes it is hard to remember that I have a Father that looks over me, looks after me and loves me. 

Becoming a father has helped me understand a part of what it must be like when God see's us looking up to Him, excited and lovingly. 

I need to keep God in my focus.

I need to continue to look to Him.