So since I have been up in Hucknall (which has been a couple of months now) I have felt really challenged about how I handle myself, how I treat myself and those around me and how I am suppose to be representing God in the things that I do.
These things are hard sometimes.....
The way I handle myself has been a major issue when I have been growing up either by acting out or by simply shutting myself away from the world. But I feel that in my journey that actually God has been showing me how to stand up.
Not to just stand up for everything that I do but to stand up for Him in the occasions where I would usually act out or hide.
God also taught me how to kneel. How to hand things over to Him in the situations where I cannot stand.
This as I said has been hard because my first reaction would be to act fast and ask questions after and I wouldn't dare say that I have this patience thing down yet but I can say that I am on a journey.
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So with this I like to think I challenge myself every time I have one of those great ideas to go back to my old self... but actually I am not that person anymore and I also don't want to be that person anymore. I have to admit that my old lifestyle has its attractiveness but actually when I think about the problems that followed the "act first ask questions after" method I had before, I don't miss that at all.
The fact of the matter is that God has changed me.
He is teaching me patience.
From disruptive neighbors to crazy individuals on the high street.
This is something I seem to have to relearn every so often....
But it is something that I love to learn.
God is the change in me.
He is the difference in my life.
And I know that I will get things wrong and act out when I shouldn't but actually that's the whole point of this journey, that sometimes I will get lost... But God is there to put me back on track.
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