Its been a while....

So from looking at my last posting date I have left this space empty for long enough! So now its time to fill it! 

I was sorting through my emails the other day and was wondering who is responsible for junk email.... What person thought one day "Hey I know what I will do.... I will send people crap through email...." well I had the pleasure of sorting through my emails this morning and about 80% were junk emails.... Asking if I want a "brand new car" or "prescription pills" ... I even had one for baldness.... 

This kinda upset me and sent me straight to the mirror to check that I still in fact had some hair left on my head.... After a very dedicated search I couldn't find a bold spot and yes I do still have hair on my head so all is well in the land of Jamie!! 

This week I have been learning about being a man.... Not cutting down tree's of fighting bears (but I will continue to do so in my spare time so all my bear wrestling fans out there do not be upset.... I WILL RETURN) but seriously I have been learning about what I am suppose to be, how to act, what to say and all of that stuff. 

I got kinda fed up after a while of being told by Mr online sermon man about what it is to be a man so I thought I would look it up myself... so I googled it....

Then there came a huge list of things that you have to have to be a man.... 

And they were.....

Being able to control your emotions... Being decisive.... Being independent.... Pursuing male activities (that one made me laugh).... There were loads of these lists all telling me what to do to become the man and how to act like the man and how to be in control like the man should be. 

But still I didn't like a lot of those lists because it put me in charge to much, in these lists where the world view of being a man not the way God wanted us to be. So I looked into being a man of God and saw what they had to say.... 

A man of God has faith in God.... A man of God is humble..... A man of God obeys God.... A man of God loves and knows scripture.... A man of God Loves God.... A man of God is brave..... A man of God is a man of prayer.... A man of God is forgiving....

These are hard..... 

I like the other list more because I can be independent, I can pursue male activities, I can make decisions and I can be a brick wall when it comes to emotions.... But all of the things in the list of being a man of God sound really hard. 

To have all of those things about a person must take years and years of desire and perseverance.... or years and years of sacrifice. Now in my mind I am like "I know what sacrifice is... I have been apart from Rachel for ages, I understand sacrifice" but really I don't because that's me putting myself on Gods level. 

He sacrificed his Son..... I gave up a couple of years with Rachel.... Not really the same thing. 

So my point here is that however hard we try and however much we "sacrifice" we will never be able to be the total package of the amazing men of God that we strive to be, not until that day when Jesus comes back and then we have a party... 

Its so easy to take the worldly view on our lives. I have done a million times already and I am sure I will do it again because I am a sinner and I will do wrong. But just think that if we could have just the smallest dose of what God wants for us in our lives how much more valuable our lives would actually be... How much more attractive our lives would be.... How much more we would want to fulfill God's plan in our life.... 

Its hard but He is worth it.... Its easy to say, so much harder to act out. Don't just say.... actually do!