That Sure Thing....

So have you ever been certain that you were meant to do something....

So certain you would drop everything else for that one thing....

That you would almost burn every other option away just so you could pursue this one thing to the end.

That happened to me, that is happening to me and it will probably always be happening to me forever.

Because there is one thing I can say about myself, is that when I get an idea in my head I will pursue it.

Even if it seems impossible, I will pursue it.

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Like attempting to get into a fitness regime....

Maybe applying for a job....

Maybe pursuing something much bigger than life itself....

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I have been having one of those 'moments' this week and maybe for the last month or so when I thought that I was suppose to do something so I went for it...

I jumped in, I got mucky and was happy to do so because I thought it would lead somewhere....

But even when you seem to have a certainty in your head....

It can still all fall apart.

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I guess that what I do in my strength is nothing compared to what God can do in His.

So I am sat here guessing about what is next....

Whats the next step, knowing that I have no right in knowing what is next but demanding an answer out of the one sure thing that is solid in my life.

I sit here feeling down and out.....

Yet I know that I have a wife that loves me, a roof over my head and more things than other people in the world.

But I still don't have that one thing that I was certain of.

It was there, right in front of my face and I let it slip....

So I can sit here, beat myself up and let myself feel down but the truth is that overall I have a lot more than I realize,
I have a love thats in me that others don't know yet,
I have a future that is out of my hands but is the best thing for me.

I have hope in God.

God holds me close.